Take a short break with a deep breath

Take a short break with a deep breath

Woo~ too much thing have to contribute in too limit time!!!! If you asking me, “How are you being now?” I think my answer recently definitely will be something like exhausted or tiring and so on… April will be a super busy month for me!! Time is too short; it’s really not enough for me to settle down my entire task! Just finish my two assignment presentation … still have lots of task queuing behind me!! Shootings, pictures edit, assignment, quizzes and final exam just round the corner!!!!! Woo~ little poor girl with thousand stone burdens on her shoulder: sad.

“Escape” will be the word always turn round and round in my mind! MAY I?

Since one day while chatting with my friend, asking him, “why should I being such suffer in my life? What the purpose? Any use for it?” sure, the normal answer will be “For your future!” FUTURE? If the world end by tomorrow, then how about “your FUTURE” mentioned before this? Yes, please ignore me as I’m asking such stupid question! Today’s noon, received a message asking how about my job interview section in one of my course. Okay, I believe that I did very well in this section (Q & A) but there are few limitations on me! Language problem will be just common but what I wish to highlight is academic performance will be the main point in the interview section. Okay, actually I don’t agree with this kind of saying at first. But the lecturer’s facial expression have proof to me that academic performance are all the thing they looking for as they present themselves as a employer. Okay, in this point, perhaps you will think my result is really too bad and have this kind of thinking. Okay, what can I said is there are three candidates been interviewed in the same time (specially arrange by the lecturer according the level of academic performance and major course) I’m the one be arranged in a group that there are one person with high score in academic (first class with CGPA 3.67) and the other one in DEAN cert (CGPA 3.53) and now your question will be how is my result should be as we are in the same group? Okay my CGPA recently is 3.44 (just second upper). Okay, stress is just normal to occur there as I felt I’m that unlucky person since the first time I knew we are in a group. But as a positive thinking person as me, good preparation will be just enough for me to face all these. So, automatically I have set in my mind, communication skill during the interview section will be more important and grade will be rated base on it. Who know … … speechless. The true, the fact, my academic result is lower than them and my distance have been far away from them (I mean my level of standard). Honestly, it brings me down. Everything have already be set, which it uncontrollable by you since you are not in that point. Actually, I think the results for three of us will be quite good as lecturer have praised us as we had did it very well. Others members have said that I had answered the question very well. Then the lecturer adds on to the first class student, “Your result is really good! You should not be any problem to interview a good job with high pay” (Being sad is not because the praised on the top student, but just feel myself that imperfect > <” ) OMG!! my future?? Just being nothing ~

My mummy always told me that results just a little part of your life. You life should be fulfill with others things to make it more wonderful! But, the reality I saw was everyone are judging people from outside cover rather than deep understand the inside quality. They will go through the resume (a piece of paper) then only judge you in other parts. It means that you resume have speak itself in advance actually. (I’m not saying that I’m that kind of high quality person, just think that this is such a common thinking for everybody perhaps including me!: noob!)

God, I’m being such imperfect. Please give me power to be stronger to face this realistic world!! Future?? … … speechless :BLUR. Which way should I take? Take the right turn or left? Any direction there?

P/S: Finish being emo for nearly 1 hour, Okay! Now going back to my task!!! Add oil ms.Q!